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  Copyright © 2016, 2017 by Lisa Strømme

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  Originally published as The Strawberry Girl in 2016 in Great Britain by Chatto & Windus, an imprint of Vintage, a part of the Penguin Random House group of companies.

  Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

  Names: Strømme, Lisa, author.

  Title: The girl between / Lisa Strømme.

  Description: Naperville, IL : Sourcebooks Landmark, 2016. | Includes bibliographical references and index.

  Identifiers: LCCN 2015041055 | (pbk. : alk. paper)

  Subjects: LCSH: Munch, Edvard, 1963-1944--Fiction. | Women--Norway--Fiction. | Åsgårdstrand (Norway)--Fiction. | GSAFD: Biographical fiction.

  Classification: LCC PR9144.9.S87 G57 2016 | DDC 823/.92--dc23

  LC record available at https://lccn.loc.gov/2015041055

  CONTENTS

  Front Cover

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Åsgårdstrand 1893

  1. Blank Canvas

  2. Primer

  3. Red

  4. Crimson

  5. Scarlet

  6. Ruby

  7. Light

  8. Cerise

  9. Blue

  10. Mixing

  11. Palette

  12. Ultramarine

  13. Yellow

  14. Dark

  15. Vermilion

  16. Natural

  17. Black

  18. Burgundy

  19. Fade

  20. Shadow

  21. Harmony

  Åsgårdstrand 1947

  Epilogue: Dreams

  Author’s Note

  List of Artworks

  Reading Group Guide

  A Conversation with the Author

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  Back Cover

  For Dagfinn,

  the palette in which I mix my colors

  ÅSGÅRDSTRAND

  1893

  1

  BLANK CANVAS

  The greatest brightness, short of dazzling, acts near the greatest darkness.

  —THEORY OF COLOURS, JOHANN WOLFGANG VON GOETHE

  I hid inside the Painting, hoping she wouldn’t see what I had become. Sometimes it still worked. If I closed my eyes and thought of strawberries, I could feel the threads of the ripped dress tickling my bare shoulder while Herr Heyerdahl’s brush swept the palette and daubed the canvas. When I concentrated hard, I could make my face sullen, yet obedient, as it was when he captured it. I could even feel the fine stems of the jasmine laced through my fingers like cobwebs. My other hand, trembling with fatigue, gripping the bowl. That itch on my shoulder that I couldn’t scratch; must not move, must not talk, must keep still.

  During the winter when there were no guests she saw me as I had been then: ten years old, simple and useful. But at sixteen it was getting harder to be the Strawberry Girl. The moniker had replaced me, hidden me firmly behind it. From the moment the Painting was finished and displayed at the Grand Hotel for all the Kristiania guests to admire, my title was set like lacquer. As a child, I wore the label with enforced pride. Now it wore me, but the veneer was cracking and peeling like old paint.

  Mother was on her knees at the stove, swishing her rag in the pail as if bathing a small child. When she saw me coming, she wrung it out with a forceful twist, as though the thing had tried to talk back to her.

  “Move, Johanne,” she spat. “Why are you dragging your feet when there’s so much work to be done? It’s the start of the season, for heaven’s sake! The Heyerdahls are arriving this afternoon. You know how he likes the cottage to be light and airy, free from…?” Her voice rose and she paused, awaiting my answer. “Free from?”

  “Clutter,” I said through clenched teeth.

  “You can lose that attitude, my girl.” Her sleeves were already rolled to the elbow, but she pushed them higher as if to make a point. “He’s bringing canvases and paints, all his supplies. He can’t be working if it’s not free from clutter in here.”

  Hans Heyerdahl couldn’t care less about that sort of thing. He was a painter. He made more clutter than the four of us ever did.

  I drew a shape on the wall with my finger.

  “Well, don’t just stand there,” she said. “I read you the letter, didn’t I? Out loud?”

  “Yes, Mother. First the boat, then the wagon. We’ve to send Father and Andreas to fetch them.”

  “So we need to get a move on.”

  She brushed past me and stretched to the high shelf, then slammed a wooden bowl down onto the stove.

  “Find some fruit, will you?” she said. “Fill the bowl. Quickly. I need you back here to sweep the floors and air the sheets.”

  “It’s still early,” I said. “I won’t be able to pick that many strawberries for a few weeks yet.”

  “I said lose that attitude. Go on, lose it, out there in the woods.” She clapped her hands in front of my face. “And if that Thomas comes running after you, you tell him you’re not interested in that kind of attention. Do you hear me?”

  “Yes, Mother.”

  “And don’t dawdle near the other painter’s house. The Sinful Man. Fru Jørgensen said he arrived last night. He’s brought his evil back again. That man’s not right,” she prodded at her own temple. “Not like our Herr Heyerdahl. Not right in the head. You keep walking past the hut. Don’t even look in the garden. You know he leaves those dreadful pictures outside to dry. Sinful. That’s what they are. He hangs his depravity in full view, like he’s proud of it. You keep your head down, Johanne Lien. Think of this family’s name, think of your reputation. Now go find some fruit for the Heyerdahls.”

  She planted the bowl in my hand and shooed me from the house, muttering about my bare feet and straggly hair as I dashed out into the bright morning sun. I left her grumbling amid the mess of her own words.

  The strawberries would still be buds, hard and reluctant like small, white fists. Nature had mixed her colors but not yet brought them to her canvas. Fruits and flowers needed light and warmth before they could blossom, but Mother seemed to think I could force them to ripen, as if by magic, because I was the Strawberry Girl. For her, the title had little to do with my occupation and more to do with the Painting. It was currency, the bridge that linked us to the upper classes, the rich holidaymakers from Kristiania, Herr Heyerdahl’s patron
s who flocked to Åsgårdstrand every summer.

  It was an accurate portrait of me as I was then. The blues and yellows merged to form a tatty little girl in a scruffy dress whose folds and crevices were darkened by shadow. The flash of skin at the torn sleeve made my shoulder look clean, although I was always covered in grazes from my wild ramblings in the forest. I didn’t see how the Painting could possibly have united us with the ladies who paraded around town in their fine white dresses and hats and ribbons. But Herr Heyerdahl stayed in our cottage. That meant something, didn’t it? The Painting set us apart. This collection of shapes, contours, tone, and light seemed to transform me into a princess in the eyes of the Kristiania guests. To my mother, it was all the proof she needed that we were practically one of them.

  There was only one strawberry bush that could be ready. Perfectly located on a hill by a wall, it was easily accessible and bathed in sunlight even this early in the season. The only complication was that it happened to be in his garden.

  If Hans Heyerdahl was Mother’s god, the Sinful Man was her devil. It was forbidden for Andreas and me to say his name. Even thinking about him was considered a betrayal.

  Mother didn’t know about what he had given me, or the conversations I’d had with him. The times I’d met him in the forest.

  Neither distinguished nor successful, he was something of an oddity in the town. He was the summer neighbor the locals liked but could not hope to understand. He was as poor as the rest of us, barely able to pay the rent for his hut, so poor that we didn’t even bother to set the word “Herr” before his name, as though he wasn’t a gentleman at all.

  His strange paintings did nothing to strengthen his reputation, and rumor liked to make him a madman and a drunk. Our upper-class guests from Kristiania, with whom Mother was so keen to make her allegiance, shunned him completely. The ladies were advised to avert their eyes from the paintings and use their parasols to shield themselves from the vulgarity on open display.

  Out in the fresh air I dared myself to say his name, treading heavily to dampen the sound of my voice. Quietly at first, I whispered the two words that dripped with wickedness. I said his name, out loud.

  “Edvard Munch.”

  Something snapped behind me as the name escaped my lips. Had I been cursed as I’d said it? So instantly condemned? I spun around to find Thomas sauntering out from behind a cluster of silver birches by the road. His open face beamed and his dark-brown eyes twinkled so brightly that, even against the glare of the sun, I could see exactly what was on his mind.

  “Johanne! Wait!” he said. “Where are you going?”

  “I’ve to pick fruit for the Heyerdahls.”

  “Can I help?”

  I gestured for Thomas to join me, without seeming too eager. My hand leaped to my shoulder, touched the fabric, smoothed out the seams of my blouse.

  “How long have you got?” he said, snatching the bowl from my hand.

  “Give me that!” I reached out, but he lifted it high above his head, stepping back toward the trees and inviting me closer. “Thomas! I don’t have time for this, not today. Give it back.”

  “All right then,” he said, lowering the bowl. “But at least come with me to the beach. A quick paddle won’t do any harm, will it?”

  He darted off, leaving me staring out to sea with a familiar longing swelling in my body. The vast expanse of water dominated my life. It always entranced me. The sheer scale of it was so infinite that I barely believed the fishermen’s stories of what was out there where the fjord met the open sea. Punctuated only by the island of Bastøy and the ships and sailboats that passed our bay, the endless blue could be seen from every part of Åsgårdstrand, a town that seemed to have been carved into the steep hill as an act of defiance by the people who belonged to the fjord.

  Thomas was already running ahead of me. I was drawn to the water and needed no further invitation. Our hill was steep and the gradient unforgiving, so it was difficult to walk down it slowly. I reeled after him, down Nygårdsgaten until it leveled out at the bottom. We passed the fishermen’s huts that would house us for the summer while the Heyerdahls stayed at our cottage. I averted my eyes through force of habit when we came to the little mustard hut at the end, the one Munch was renting from Fru Jørgensen. Breaking into a sprint, we tore down Havnegata where the cobbles spread out like fans beneath us, leading to the pier and the bathing house on the rocky side of the coast where the water coursed in from the fjord. My chest opened with relief, and I inhaled the freedom of the fresh sea air.

  Rolling his trousers to his knees, Thomas waded out into the water. I hitched up my skirt and petticoat. Soon the silt was filling the spaces between my toes. Out on the sea the sailboats drifted by, moving quietly with the tides as if in a daydream. The beach was still. A few young girls were playing with stones at the water’s edge under the watchful eye of their mother, perched on a rock beneath a parasol. Further along, an old fisherman was scrubbing at the base of his upturned boat while a bearded man with a rope stood behind him tying knots. They paid us no attention, and I was glad of it.

  “Come on! Up to your knees,” Thomas said, striding out ahead of me. “I dare you!”

  I set my bowl down on a stone and followed him, splashing in the cool water as it rose above my ankles. He was heading for a group of rocks that jutted out from the surface, the place where I used to sit as a girl and pretend I was a mermaid.

  “I can’t get that far out today,” I shouted, thinking about the book in my front pocket. “Not without my bathing clothes.”

  “Spoilsport,” he said.

  He cupped his hands and scooped up water, then blew it through his fingers, spraying fountains all around me.

  “Thomas!” I shrieked.

  If it hadn’t been for the book, I would have drenched him. Instead, I sploshed away, searching for treasures. But soon he was behind me, slipping his arms around my waist and pressing his chest against my back.

  “Look,” he said, pointing to a spot on the horizon. “One day I’ll take you out there, Johanne.” I felt his breath against my ear and my stomach fluttered, then tightened as his lips dusted my skin and he began telling the story he liked to recite. “I’ll take you away from here, on an adventure,” he said, lowering his mouth to my neck. “I’ll be the skipper on a big ship.”

  “And where will you take me?” I said, as if I didn’t know.

  “We’ll head out to sea, to Denmark, then down to France and to Egypt. We’ll find riches and return decked in jewels, and they’ll call us the king and queen of Åsgårdstrand.”

  “You sound like Peer Gynt,” I said, “and look where his seafaring got him.”

  “At least he was rich,” Thomas said, “in the end.”

  I wriggled out of his arms and turned to face him.

  “No, he was selfish and lost his riches.”

  He shrugged.

  “You will come with me, though, one day, won’t you, Johanne?” he said, his confidence leaking like water from a broken bucket.

  “Will I?”

  “Don’t you want to see what’s out there?” he said, taking my hands in his. “To explore?”

  A low horn sounded out on the fjord, and I turned around to see the Jarlsberg sailing in toward the pier, its flags flapping in the wind to announce its arrival.

  I picked up my skirt and shook out the soaked hem as I ran back to the beach in search of my bowl.

  “Wait!” Thomas shouted. “Johanne, come back!”

  “I don’t have time,” I said.

  “But wait! Johanne, stop!”

  I was already hurrying away.

  “There’s a dance tonight, at the Grand Hotel,” he shouted. “You will come, won’t you?”

  “Maybe,” I called. Maybe, if my mother hasn’t killed me by then.

  • • •

  I ran across the be
ach, over rocks and clumps of seaweed. My feet knew the way and easily found the smooth tracks that years of bathers had padded away. I grabbed my bowl and hurried along the shoreline past the Grand Hotel and onto the path that led to Fjugstad forest. Munch’s house was adjacent to the path and spanned a steep hill with the house at the top and the path at the bottom. The fruit trees and bushes on the other side of the fence beckoned me with outstretched arms.

  The fence had never stopped me before. I balanced my bowl on the post and lifted my skirt to my knees, scanning the neighboring windows for witnesses to my crime. I saw and heard nothing but the screeching gulls circling above me. My feet sank into the wire, and I wobbled as it bent to carry my weight. My skirt tore, snagging on a stray splinter as I jumped over.

  Avoiding the nettles, I landed in the long grass and set to work searching the bushes for fruit. I kicked away twigs and brushed aside the dainty white flowers and serrated leaves of the strawberry bush, but found nothing. Dropping to my knees, I crawled along the ground, checking the undergrowth. I plunged my arms into the tangle of the hedge, scratching my fingers and forearms until welts appeared on my skin.

  “Oh, curse it!” I said. “Damned Heyerdahls!”

  My face was buried in the bushes.

  “You’re wasting your time.”

  The voice flung open a door in my memory.

  I released the leaves in my hand and froze as a shiver traveled the length of my spine.

  My arms stung as I turned to find Munch looking down at me. He was wearing a dark jacket that hung from him as though he might have inherited it from an older brother. A gray vest held him in place. He had a shapely, sensuous mouth, which I felt guilty for noticing. The top lip, curving and full, was framed by a light mustache; the bottom lip was plump, almost petted like a child’s. He had a strong jawline and pale-blue, doleful eyes that sang with sadness. It struck me that the sadness was not a fleeting emotion but something that inhabited him permanently, like an anchor.

  “Johanne?” he said, half smiling.

  “Yes, it’s me.” I straightened my torn skirt. “Mother wanted me to find fruit for the Heyerdahls.”